I lost my late teens to disease
And only felt normal and sane since 1917
And i can’t explain
Why i find comfort in songs that are seething with pain
So i lie on the roof and stare at the sky
The clouds have gone orange from all the streetlights
Is i’m still alive
Still alive
Still alive
I moved away from the house
Where my parents told me i wasn’t like everyone else
And i know how it sounds
But i’m glad i didn’t burn my christian school to the ground
Cause i’d rather die
Then give them the satisfaction of painting a lie
And i’d go back in time
To that nine-year-old child
And tell her stay alive
Stay alive
Two years older than me
Lives until she’s hundred and eighteen
Eyes like the sea
Image of someone i’m dying to meet
And her son is named after my brother
And she’s a good mother
But she’ll never let that define her
She’ll paint the world instead
I wrote her to escape my head
But god, it was bad in the olden times
Forget the lace dresses, my mind isn’t mine
Only living to hide from a crime
Come out boys
Time to die
Anyway, i’ve grown up
And i’m way too tired to give a f#ck
And it’s only a matter of time
Before i run out of skyscrapers to climb
I’ll float away to the world in my head
Where i can put the thoughts to bed
And i can act just how i like
And forget for a while that i can’t go outside
So
Sound the alarm
I’m running away
I won’t let this take
Hold of me again
Can’t see where i’m going
But i know that i’m glowing
Can anyone see
That this is real for me
And you won’t take it from me
And i know i’m only nineteen
But at least i’m alive
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