I’m about to suffocate in this state
I use to be great but now i spread hate
I tried my best to stop my addiction
But now i harm myself self-infliction
Now i wished this was all just fan-fiction
But i am not that good of a story writer
I pull an all-nighter with a single lighter
I am in complete darkness as i try and write
I seem to favor the night but i am alright
I am battling depression at the same time
As i try to continue writing this rhyme
I want to end this obsession
I have way to much aggression
As i was told i need anger management
Tied that girl and locked her in my own bas#ment
This is my last resort or i leavе this sport
Back inside my head i heard a small voicе talk
He is also watching as if he could stalk
Told me to type x in the address bar
He said how about one and not that too far
I guess i have lost control and watched four
Now i saw some things that could be hardcore
Made a mistake i’m sorry jesus and mary
So now i am not telling jokes like jim carrey
It’s completely true an autobiography
This are my struggles with things like p#rnography
My hands are never clean i wipe them twice a day
I feel like dr. dre back in the n w a
I got an attitude that’s so rude
That everyone thinks i am a prude
Lost in a maze look at jesus during the crucifixion
I just want to go back to the days before the addiction
My thoughts cannot be written
Only these lines i’m spitting
At the end of the day i’m pretty sure
That very girl will think i’m immature
It’s only nature i tell myself as i continue
But is it on the menu? hey i am still asking you
Now this girl is like forget this little kid
That’s when i bust her open with a trash lid
I am psycho not a child
My mind is so super wild
I could set the parking lot on fire
I will try and rewire the entire brain
And you thought i was not insane
That is pretty stupid for sure
That job was mediocre
I am all in like poker
I remember the first time i was ashamed
And i did not forget the name of that site
I remember looking at it every night
It had females acting like lovely doctors
In reality they were a bunch of bores
I did not want to sin but i was thirteen
I didn’t mean but i was a stupid teen
I fell into lust and was ready to bust
A new rhyme about anything at that time
Yeah girl you could give me a check up
Now that began to really wreck up
My whole life has now became whack
If i could take it back i would
So i did things that i should not have done
Now, i’m the one that is not having fun
I will take my last resort where’s the gun
Now i am a dope fiend
That needs some dopamine
Minds ripping at the seams
Addicted is a euphemism
For what is wrong with my system
I’m on autopilot
So i have not been lit
Since i decided to stop
Coming back into hip hop
I tried every program
I know that god will damn
Not for a kilogram
I addicted to something close
Addicted watching girls and poes
My home address is triple six
I think i’m too broken to fix
Hey now i have been clean for a week
God jesus mary is what i seek
My friend comes with a photo
Of some blonde bombshell wait oh no
Now that picture’s in my mind
Now i need think fast and find
Something else to think about
Go on the internet route
She had a nice body didn’t she
Come on take another look and see
Yeah that is super-hot
Oh no i should not
There is a flaw in the matrix
The devil with a bag of tricks
Clicking on a link
Before i could think
Did a third cd and i’m be
Another week clean as you see
Had a nightmare of a girl with blonde hair
Her skin was fair and her clothes weren’t there
I guess the devil never ever sleeps
You think her kitten is as sweet as peeps
Yo come on have a taste
She will c#m in your face
I say no she says go
I do not know no mo
I scream and wake up from the nightmare
With a long dick in my underwear
I am in a weak state
As i go m#st#rb#t#
Now i go weep
Can’t even sleep
I am the moth p#rn is the flame
Whether it’s soft hard or no name
I m#st#rb#t# sorry for this mind state
But it is too late to have a clean slate
The images i seen i can’t unseen
I need someone to come and intervene
Or i will end like that one lonely teen
Dead with a hard on
When my time is done
I’m will go down literally
For my murder of chivalry
I burnt down my place in heaven
With all of my repeated sin
But can i still be forgiven
I tried to stay away
So each and every day
Go as far as i can
I cannot stand it man
It’s like a moth to the flame
It forever calls my name
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Mit MJ Rips Lyrics – Addiction
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