I kinda have this bad habit – for not asking favours
If its life or death, or face the consequence, i stand upon the statement
I’m stubborn guy and i’m dead inside, due to a past relation
But i blame myself for being vulnerable, but now my shield is lifted
Mind has shifted, my life is scripted, my soul is gifted and these greys are wisdom
My wardrobe, so cost effective
And you’ll never understand all the pain collected
All of these thoughts
Tossеd into conflagration
Fire blazing
I’ve been chasing thesе dreams for years
Facing my demons and fears
A queen on my side
And she’s riding to death – yes
That makes me blessed – yes
Cross on my chest
I got 2 queens – yes
Mom and my gf
My cup overflowing with love and support
But still there is trouble that lingers in thought
I feel constricted as if i am stuck on repeat
Like a broken record
I plotted the moment to end my life
Depressional feelings – i tried it twice
I sat on a staircase with pills and some water
Popping these drugs for a sleeping disorder
Then i went to class and continued as normal
My will and my farewell, inside of a journal
And i went to sleep
I woke up, i guess that god pulled a reversal
I opened my eyes, to see my mother
Praying in silence, for me to recover
Call on her name and sheds an ocean
I apologize but my voice is broken
I got a second chance, and i tried again
I tried to kill myself and nearly took my friends
And they were traumatize, i’m on the brink of death
They stood by my side and they never left
All the darkest clouds, surrounded me
Bounded me – broke my spirit, inside of me
Made a child out of me, crying until i fell asleep
I returned to reality, found my sanity
As if i’m a sim, in the city, trying to establish normality
Finding the strength deep inside of me
But i am alive
Through all of the trouble i made it
I purchased my ticket to heaven
No longer a victim or shackled too hatred
I will survive
The journey got tougher
I nearly submitted
I was admitted, it taught me a method
To deal with depression
I got luck on my side
I’m a mysterious guy
And the deeper i dive
The more that i find
Not dealing with it, only kept me behind
And killing my vibe
Let me redo the design
Love is patient and kind
I’m feeling alive
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