First grandbaby to both of my grandmother’s
And to others first nephew
What did my mom and dad do
Pregnant at 20 and having a child, too
Unplanned not knowing what to do
But they celebrated the baby like it was the last one ever
Reading at 2 ain’t he clever, looks like they did better
Then expected
Many years later he’s depressed and a failure i guess it was expected
Getting yelled at and kicked out from the house
Shouted at and berated my fate is evident tonight
Maybe momma was right
Maybe momma was right
I never planned to live past 24
Just the other day i was making my goodbyes
Preparing to leave out the back door
This golden child pressure ain’t what i ever asked for
It ain’t what i asked for
Lost in the world
Part of myself lost in the swirl
Born into quicksand, sinking since i could stand
They say the brighter the star the faster it burns
But i was never bright enough to merit the kind words
The absurd truth, potential in spades, but never ace the things i was supposed to
A toast to, brent, dealt the right cards but still can’t bridge the gap, a war with himself on every track, and still can’t win, gambling his time away like blackjack
Matter of fact
I’m a failure at every place that i’m at
Numb to feeling of disappointment because that’s the thing i’ve most gotten since kids played miss mary mack
Like
How do i value myself?
How do i tell you myself?
How do i explain myself?
How do i go through all this pain by myself?
I paint a self-portrait, and the paint becomes tortured, the colors are horrid, the shapes become distorted, i see nothing but a sad face at a three-quarter perspective
The golden child made of pyrite
Beholden to the ire of my crimes i’m
Colder on the inside, so much colder on the inside
Crazy you, i’m lost in the world where i see myself today, it’s crazy you, but it’s crazy me, but it’s crazy me…
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