This goes on and on trying to change
Look ahead of me it’s not in range
Life is speeding by quick like a train
I can’t get rid of all of this pain
It settles in my brain the demons eat away
All my good thoughts it’s like a stray
It comes in quick and makes you pay
For the feelings but i’m not okay
All this sad sh#t i’m getting so tired of it
I can’t give it up i just throw a fit
Trying to let go of everything sick of this sh#t
f#ck i think i just need a f#cking hit
Lemme think back on some of this motherf#cking stuff
I tried once to get myself very tough
I quit it all thinking i was outta the rough
But i guess i just couldn’t f#cking trust
I sit in the dark all alone me and i
I look at myself in the mirror in my eye
In favor of stopping this pleasе say aye
I’m a singular person i’m like mikе
Another night gone to sh#t again all thanks to you
I only get a few hours a night maybe it’s just two
I need help but i can’t ask i guess i’m just screwed
I’m a sad little m#th*rf#ck*r who doesn’t eat food
I come to you with my help but the j just doesn’t seem to heal
I sat with the devil again and i made myself a deal
He asks me while i get down on a knee and i kneel
What do you need me to do none of this even is real
I think to myself all alone every single (night)
I just wanna sleep it off i don’t wanna (fight)
You tell me i’m not good enough and i f#cking (cry)
So i stay up every night and i f#cking (try)
To make my music better and better and it doesn’t work
I stay up and work just to fail to get my perk
I try by thinking back to the guy that was a f#cking jerk
But i stop writing because it all f#cking hurts
It’s so simple to learn but i have all this depression
I thought one day i would have a simple profession
I think i’m gonna burst again with all this suppression
We just need to stop all of this g#dd#mn f#cking oppression
I wanna be in the game i wanna be getting fame
I just don’t wanna be selling my soul to the f#cking devil
I smoke a bowl hot like a kettle i’m in the rain
I will not settle for a small level changing like a bevel it’s a pain
Sometimes i reminisce on my past life
Thinking that i’ll always live with this strife
I think to myself while i hold a knife
I won’t ever live with someone let alone a wife
Done with the herb right now i’m just (drinking) {drinking}
Staying up all night fighting these (demons) {demons}
Wanting to make a milly in my sleep i’m (dreaming) {dreaming}
Thinking of what i can do i’m really just (thinking) {thinking}
Thinking about making something of my life without making a secret
Maybe change up this music sh#t i’m really just thinking (thinking)
Live in my own little world celebrating with my little miscrit
Maybe it’ll stay the same i stay up every night just drinking
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