Intro
These are the thoughts of a man who is about to end his life. this is a fictional account of a man on the edge of his life. this is just a story
Verse 1
Thought of getting a rope, gun, or knife
Thought of ways that i could end my life
Thought of reasons why i wanted to die
Thought of the reasons that cause the lie
People saying it is psychology
But all that i need to blame is me
Doctors say it is a mental disorder
That he crossed the border
Of sanity and what they call reality
It is a huge pity growing in a city
With a lousy foundation
Rooted in a rich nation
Everything is medical
Or some wеird mental
Issue that will not improve
Takе a tissue and move
Or get lost in the groove
The real reason i wanted to die
Well it was built on the lie
God said that all creation is good
I look around at my life and hood
I see goodness mixed with something bizarre
Hitting me like a streetcar named desire on fire
It ripped my clothes and exposed my foes
And every single one of my holes and wounds
Walking in single tombs and the soul blooms
Society believes sin is good but i know i could
But i promised myself i never would but should
I had zero friends making no ends
But i could never justify the means
Until i got into my teens realized
That i got nothing in my eyes
So i look out to the horizon
And all i see is a world full of sin
I been protected from and wanted in
I binged on cursing, lying, and masturbating
I speeded up thoughts of dying there’s no waiting
God taught me that life was precious
But the world taught me to be vicious
Just look at roe vs wade and court dishes
I do not know when life begins
Everyone dies but not everyone lives
So when i count all my sins
Looking for the one who forgives
I say no not anymore
I am almost positively sure
I have no life breathed inside of me
All there’s agony pain cursing in vain
Before i hurt the world i will hang
Or maybe shoot myself bang bang
Physical pain is nothing at all
I could stand at it a foot tall
The reason suicide is so hard to understand
Is because you cannot ask the man
And people who have thought of it
Will not spit because you would throw a fit
I did not care about rhythm or flow
I already know this is just real talk
But i am here ready to walk in the light
I will not end my life tonight or fight
My whole life was damaged by my individuality
Because i said no to my whole spirituality
The government says yes to war, abortion, and more
But you got to stick to your core. or die even more
I wish i could honestly say i never thought of death
Or that i am a spotless catholic with the holy breath
But i was a regular guy
Now ask yourself why
I loved p#rn, swearing, eminem, kicking screaming
Pain, death, finger flipping, anything taboo
Why the hell did i do one eighty
When from being so real shady
To putting my nets down
And walking with him to town
When i walk down the street i see saints
They are regular people like you and me
But they understand how to be
I love atheists because they remind me
Of who i was a doubting man who could not see the plan
Ask me if people could change
I will laugh and say that would not be strange
If we were not afraid to speak
The world would not have a problem to seek
The creator the great liberator
There is nothing greater
Jesus saved me and everyone
His salvation is never done
As long as one heart sorrows
That is where his heart goes
Sins held me back more than the dean
I was clever teen hiding from the scene
I was nervous and mean favored the villain
Because i was an outcast for liking to go to mass
Hated learning about the past because the future
Drove me to think i need change but nothing worked
Everything i tried evil lurked
Addictive program i became a sloth
Happy thoughts i turned a emo goth
Strong will i had no conviction
Until i lived through the crucifixion
They say that the gospel is all fiction
There is something about being wise
That helps you understand all lies
They want scientific proof
When you are humiliated they are a goof
My religion is based on pure sacrificing love
Not based on an old man controlling from above
Give me a written proof for why we love
There is no explanation
I am call to a higher station
God speak through my words
Let me bring to you herds
Help me bring together
And let me fit better
Among the crowds chanting die
And hear my voice chanting no
My worst “no” is nothing compared to my best “yes”
When i lived a lustful life i denied all association
When i converted to jesus he is king in my nation
This is not a rap it never ends
This is just a free verse depends
My life is a curse and it all blends
All i know is it is life over death
Preaching jesus until my last breath
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