Heavy tasting of the paddle, I’m fighting for peace of mind
I been walking through the gallows and shadows creeping behind
So I’m lighting up this candle to guide me out the abyss
Swear this pain’s too much to handle when happiness is eclipsed
So I wish upon a star for the suffering to desist
Only if I could restart it would pan my heart to be fixed
Loneliness and hopelessness both together should not be mixed
I been folding under pressure, popping pills and taking swings
I ain’t proud of what I’ve done, I swear it hurts to reminisce
I don’t know who I become every time this depression hits
Push away the ones I love and lose myself in solitude
I don’t know who I can trust ’cause no one ever follows through
So I loathe inside my crib lose myself within these walls
I’m sorry for my sins, I know I’m basking in my flaws
I hope that you forgive me ’cause I can’t forgive myself
I know I’m slowly slipping down this hallway straight to hell, oh no
I feel so alone, feel so broken
My soul is turning cold, now it’s frozen
I try to open but I break down
I need to sober up, no I ain’t proud
Try to run away from my sorrows
Wish I could numb the pain with this bottle
I need someone to save me from myself
My faith is slowly breaking, I might fail
Every day’s another puzzle and I struggle to figure out
And this pain in me is subtle that’s coupled with fear and doubt
So much trouble in my soul got me desperate to say goodbye
Wondering if letting go is the answer to all my whys
I been killing with this misery killing me ever-slow
I been searching for my healing by seeking way deep below
Knowing damn well that these drugs are corrupting my broken heart
No, you can’t tell that these cuts got me bleeding, mentally scarred
If I fall, will you be there to lift me up from my lows?
If I knocked then rang your doorbell would you leave the door closed?
Would you let me in or shelter me from my own past?
Would you never leave and still hold onto my cold hands?
Do you trust who I am and who I’m testing to be?
Will you please help me plan and set myself free from me?
From the chains of my tears and all the guilt in my heart
I pray that I persevere to lead the world after dark, amen
I feel so alone, feel so broken
My soul is turning cold, now it’s frozen
I try to open but I break down
I need to sober up, no I ain’t proud
Try to run away from my sorrows
Wish I could numb the pain with this bottle
I need someone to save me from myself
My faith is slowly breaking, I might fail
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