I went from an outcast in the back filling up with doubt fast
To a well balanced indivdual to outlast
Anything coming my way, i don’t avoid it, i want it today
Give me whatever you want i’ma take it and burn it like “oh they don’t want to be saved”
I ain’t a fool like my dad but it ain’t cool to stay mad
These dudes view me, youtube me, glued to my past
And they like “you ain’t been living the same”
We like you better when fooling the pain
I told ’em i had to let it go, let it before me because i was afraid of my brain
Straight up it felt like that when i fell like that
And i’m pissy when i belt you but the belt strikes back
And it’s been taller for me but i don’t want to leave, i got plenty more i gotta do
And i been heading forward in the booth, i am an animal, i’m on the loose
You are the reason i am alive, you better believe that i’m gonna strive
Until i’m deceased and i’m gonna rot
Long as i’m breathing, stick to the plot
Because the alternative ain’t looking good
It’s got me doing what i should
Look at me grow, look at me prosper, look at ’em looking at me getting shook, yo
They told me i would be nothing, i love it, it’s one of the reasons i’m here
I’m not the type that would like it if i ended up like i’m one of my peers
To be a total disaster
I’m not a total disaster
They said i would never amount to sh#t back when i was sounding out the alphabet
Learning how to count, they count me out, doubt would cloud my head
My teachers called me out, the kids clowning me ’bout how i
Every test we took, took my history book, kicked me out the class
So now my desk is in the hall, all the students going to lunch
Would laugh at me, getting hassled by the staff and faculty
I should be glad to leave, outside and free, but home ain’t any better
Catch a beating but i’m still alive like eddie vedder
Guess they’re right that i might not amount to zilch
Told me i ain’t sh#t then drove it in my skull with power drills
Crying over sour milk, forgot it’s spilt
Went from driving power wheels to county jail
Feel like i carry around a thousand pounds of guilt
My knees are beginning to weaken that’s on the door, do what they’ve gotta to learn
Bagging the feelings i had as a teen, ended up making a positive turn
Feelin’ the dream, sh#t is the opposite, got and lost every dollar i earn
Then i hit biting my father, pretended he thought it would cause a concern
Instead they said
They told me i would be nothing, i love it, it’s one of the reasons i’m here
I’m not the type that would like it if i ended up like i’m one of my peers
To be a total disaster
I’m not a total disaster
I’m a disaster but the rap i speak’s a masterpiece
Black metal blast disaster with a strap in each
Never contested brand is building like i’m master p
I told lance i’ll spaz on anything he pass to me
Now cats are mad at me because we’re shredding beats to bits
But each fist will knock the f#cking teeth out of a piece of sh#t
At least i get props from veterans in hip hop
They not tripping less they tripping off how f#cking beast i get
I’ve got a lot of hate but gotta say i’ve ceased to let
That effect me, got respect not many reach to get
I spending g, unleash the beats when i’m releasing heat
Six months, you sitting on the beat, ain’t even released it yet
sh#t i haven’t even reached my peak
The me you’ve met is mad and the plan is to unleash the freak
Pagans, p#rns, pedophiles, pedestrians, police
I sink my teeth in any creature if i need to feast
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